From my heart

 Folks, I'm just going to put it out there. I'm tired, discouraged and overwhelmed. I don't usually post on things like this, especially first thing in the morning, but I feel that when I blog it, it helps me. This move is one of the hardest things I've ever done. First, because it was unexpected. Second, because I don't want to move. Currently, I'm looking at a tiny one-bedroom apartment on the 3rd floor. If you've offered to help me move, that might change your mind. And third, because I'm doing this by myself. There is so much to do, and it's overwhelming. I'm running out of room in my storage unit, and it looks like I might need another unit, which is another expense I really don't need. And, that's after I've thrown so much away. I'm only keeping bare essentials, such as pictures, favorite books, mementos, etc. 

Why am I posting this? Because I want pity or a handout? Not at all. I'm posting because I know that a lot of my friends who are prayer warriors are reading this. Many of you have told me that you have been praying for me, and I'm so grateful. Please don't quit. I also need encouragement. I need visitors who will keep me company as I sort through hundreds of boxes and pack away more things for storage. I don't need anyone to do the work, but I need the company and encouragement as I deal with this. I know we're in the dead of the coldest snap in years, so I know that some people won't be able to do that. I'd settle for a phone conversation.     I just feel so alone in all of this. I can't sleep, and I'm fearing that depression is going to start settling in. 

Please accept this post in the way I'm hoping it will be read. I'm not asking for pity or a handout as I stated before, I just need some prayer and encouragement before I fall apart, because that's where I am. If I'm getting negative vibes from you over this post, please stop reading now, because I don't need that. The experts say that if you feel like you're going to either lose it or withdraw into a shell, you need to say something. I'm saying something. 

Thanks for reading this, and it has helped some. I've never posted anything like this before. Everyone goes through their dark times, and this is one of mine. Please pray for me.